Search for answers after Windsor man disappears in Trinity Alps
One of the last photographs of Steve Morris was taken high up on a ridgeline in the Trinity Alps, the same day Morris would disappear without a trace.
Three other people are with him in the clearing where they had stopped for lunch after a hike that had taken most of the morning. Tim Bowen and Jim Bankson are off to Morris’ left and Bob Shoulders, who would be the last person to see Morris alive, is taking the photograph.
In it, Morris is standing on some jutting rocks, slightly higher than the others. He is tugging on the brim of his hat. It is a gesture that almost looks as if he is surveying the vistas around him, looking for a new route to conquer.
It was, say family and friends, his way.
“He was always looking for another challenge, another mountain to climb,” said Carrie Morris, his wife of 37 years. “It was just he had to be higher to feel that wonderful soul-clearing peace. There was always some place higher.”
Later that afternoon, Morris would become separated from his hiking partner and vanish. Rescue teams from several agencies, including Trinity, Marin and Sonoma counties, scoured the mountain for the 59-year-old Windsor husband and father, who was an experienced hiker.
The search was called off Aug. 7, after five days with no sign of Morris, only speculation and guesses as to what happened to him.
Four weeks later, he still is missing. A private service was held for Morris at the First Presbyterian Church of Santa Rosa, which sponsored the backpacking trip and where Morris was an active, involved member. And while family and friends continue looking for him, including a ground search of the area over Labor Day weekend, the hope at this point is that his body eventually is recovered.
But in the vacuum his disappearance has created, friends and family are left to face the loss of a man who loomed large in their tight-knit religious community, leaving them with a mystery that has tested the very tenets of their belief system.
“This is a moment where yes, you could have a crisis of faith,” said Dale Flowers, the pastor at First Presbyterian and a longtime friend. “But part of faith is leaving the outcome to God, and for us, it’s believing in the goodness of God. There is no formula.”
For his wife, the whole tragedy, and the outpouring of support from strangers and friends alike, has made her believe more deeply in what she calls “God with skin on.
“If anything, it tends to strengthen one’s faith when you experience the presence of God in such a profound way,” she says, “both in a deep internal sense but also through the myriad ways that people all around you and across the country move toward you with love and compassion.”
It is a place, say family and friends, where Morris lived and breathed. He was deeply devoted to his beliefs, and fiercely protective of his wife and teenage daughter, both of whom he doted on.
A skilled carpenter and trained family therapist, he was quick to help friends and others in need, many who he met through the church. With his wife, he ran a Christian counseling practice in Santa Rosa, where she said he made deep connections with the people in his care.
“He had experienced great pain in his life,” Carrie Morris said. “And he knew how to put people at ease no matter what they were going through. It was a gift.”
For the past seven years, he was a member of a mens group from his church who meet every Saturday morning to talk about matters of faith and share life experiences. The group has become important in the lives of the men who attend, said Flowers and Shoulders, both of whom were part of it. Morris, they said, was a steady, quiet and positive force.
But it was out in nature - hiking, biking, climbing or camping - where Morris seemed most at home.
“He was not the kind of person who could sit for long indoors,” his wife said. “He was happiest in big, open spaces.”
Like the Trinity Alps.
Beauty and wildfires
Aug. 2 was an achingly beautiful day. The only blemish in the sky was a vague misty gray from wildfires that were burning in the forests well below where the men were hiking. But although they were far from their base camp at Stoddard Lake, those fires were on everybody’s mind.
The group - nine men from the church - arrived a day earlier, and along with the birds and wind in the trees, the soundtrack around them included the whir of helicopters, which at regular intervals were dipping into the lake for water to douse the fires. It spoiled the solace of this remote, natural place.
“It was a strange trip from the beginning,” Shoulders said. “Even before Steve went missing, it was the most unusual trip I’ve ever been on. It was kind of a bummer. The helicopters landing in the lake was interesting at first, but after a while it wasn’t anymore.”
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