Gaye LeBaron: Memories of Christmas on North Coast painful, jubilant
(Editor’s note: This column is a holiday favorite that you may have seen before.)
Tucked away 11 months of the year along with the tissue-wrapped ornaments, they come out only at Christmas. These would be our Christmas memories. There are the ones that make us smile and maybe even laugh out loud. These are the ones told over and over again at Christmas dinner, especially the ones we can laugh about now that didn’t seem so funny at the time.
And then there are the ones we still cry over, but cannot push away. These are the toughest to deal with. It still makes me uncomfortable, when all the gifts are opened, to see one left behind, under the tree. It reminds me of what you do about a present for a father who has not regained consciousness after neurosurgery.
You wrap the obligatory plaid Pendleton shirt and put it under the tree and then you pray.
I’ve lost two fathers at Christmas. One when I was 7, after a long, debilitating illness, and the other, the aforementioned dearly loved stepdad, when I was 26 and the mother of a month-old daughter. I watched my mother in her struggle to be merry every holiday for the rest of her blessedly long life.
Mercifully, there are other kinds of memories to tip the scales toward pure joy. The best ones, of course, are the happy ones, the ones we tell over and over again. Even the most reticent can have a holiday memory coaxed out of them.
My husband, John, tried to claim that he had no family stories about Christmas. When I tried to pry one out of him, he fell back on the old standards that he tells his grandson - the day his father’s cat Felix had a fit and died under the kitchen table, and the one he calls “Uncle Harry and Mush,’’ a cautionary tale about the time his uncle fed him the oatmeal for lunch that he had refused to eat at breakfast. These were not Christmas events, and I told him they didn’t count.
Pressed, he did volunteer that he remembered that the Santa Claus from Tomasini’s Hardware in Petaluma came to his school, American Valley Grammar in Valley Ford, on the back of a truck made to look like a sleigh. And that one year, when he was home with a cold, Santa came to his house.
We share memories like Tomasini’s Santa, of bygone Christmases in Santa Rosa, with the junior college chorus singing carols at the ceremonial lighting of the Cedar of Lebanon tree that Luther Burbank planted to mark his grave, and the way the Sonoma County Courthouse, outlined in lights, illuminated the whole downtown.
The ones we can laugh about now that the wounds have healed or the mess has been cleaned up are perhaps the most vivid. Around our house, there’s the year that Sam the Cat, may he rest in peace, tried to climb the tree.
And, worst yet, the year the tree fell over - the result of being placed in a corner with no ornaments to balance at the back. I can still see the shards of some of my most treasured Santas. I have friends who still bring me a Santa ornament every year because they, too, had a tree that fell over in their Christmas pasts.
There are lots of things we laugh about now - the tree that came home from the farm with so many gaps in its branches that holes were drilled in the trunk for branches from the bottom. It took a whole lot of tinsel (remember tinsel?) to achieve a Christmas effect that year.
We laugh now, when we look at the decoupaged (remember decoupage?) photos from a long line of kid Christmas cards. We laugh now because we forget the hassles - the “No, look this way!’’ the “For heaven sakes, smile!’’ and the inevitable “Just one more,’’ that accompanied the photo shoots.
There they are. The little ones making Christmas cookies, carrying out the Christmas tree from Mrs. Nielsen’s tree farm off Chanate Road, toting packages bought and wrapped at Rosenberg’s through Courthouse Square, and - my personal favorite - the pair of them, in choir robes, singing from a book of carols.
Only those of us who were there remember that the 7-year-old boy was singing, very loudly, “I want to go home!’’ But he was smiling.
Chances are, if asked, I will tell again the story about my Aunt Rose and the fur coat.
I was staying with her family at their Sacramento home while my father was in the hospital. It was 1942, wartime, and things were tight, but Uncle Tony was a contractor and reasonably well off. Aunt Rose was a great lady with a gift of laughter. In later years (she lived to be 100), I looked forward to visiting her because she never lost her sense of humor.
But she lost it that Christmas morning.
I should add that she was one of those people (you know who you are) who rattled and poked at packages, trying to determine what was in the boxes addressed to her under the tree.
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